Do I exist?

Or am I barely a breeze

And every time I wake up,

With my eyes closed

I wish to never have to open them

Again

I hope you will forget I am here

So I can disappear

And you won’t try and find me

I want to stay lost forever

And never pass by the same tree

Or the same stone

At every step I want to know something

different

Something that is not as repetitive

As

Living

I wish to watch time dancing before my eyes

Unable to save me

I want to sink like a tone

With all the waves in the oceans

Pummelling into me

Without anyone to save me

Because

Even I don’t want to save myself

I want to pass by you

Barely a breeze

And I won’t think of you

As I sit with my feet sawing with the breeze

I’ll seek refuge

And

Solitude

In the clouds

High above your head

That always hang above your reach

And there

I will never

Have to open

My

Eyes

Again