You

You look to the sky,

The sun glaring in

Your

Eyes.

It knows you better

Than anyone else

On this

Godforsaken

Planet.

Its light reaches further.

Stronger,

Than any faltering light

That has ever tried to reach you.

It sears your eyes

With its burning contact.

Its light is branding.

It know when you are tired

It felts the smudges of a sleepless black

From your mind’s eyes.

It knows that there is no happiness

In the reaches of your lips

Because it warms them with

Its

Gentle

Kiss

Warms them into joy

And happiness

And even as its light fades,

Even as you watch it steadily drift away,

You know that it is still there

Just beyond

Your

Sight

Watching over you.

And you know

You

Are

Not

Alone.

Existing

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Do I exist?

Or am I barely a breeze

And every time I wake up,

With my eyes closed

I wish to never have to open them

Again

I hope you will forget I am here

So I can disappear

And you won’t try and find me

I want to stay lost forever

And never pass by the same tree

Or the same stone

At every step I want to know something

different

Something that is not as repetitive

As

Living

I wish to watch time dancing before my eyes

Unable to save me

I want to sink like a tone

With all the waves in the oceans

Pummelling into me

Without anyone to save me

Because

Even I don’t want to save myself

I want to pass by you

Barely a breeze

And I won’t think of you

As I sit with my feet sawing with the breeze

I’ll seek refuge

And

Solitude

In the clouds

High above your head

That always hang above your reach

And there

I will never

Have to open

My

Eyes

Again

I am free

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Here I have danced

Like the snow

Tiny bits blown by

The

Wind

Here I have wandered

Toe after heal

Heal after toe

Like a bird on a wire

Except,

Instead of flying off

I fall

Here I have sung

Story after story

My tears falling to unsympathetic hands

Raining

Painting arid desert

Like a monsoon

Here I have listened

I am here

I am here

But you don’t

Hear

Me

You can’t

Hear

Me

I’m listening like an owl watches betond

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I am the snow that is

Cold

I am the bird that is

Free

I am the test that is

Ignored

I am the owl that is

Watching

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I melt like a snowflake

I fly like a bird

I drown like the rain

I listen

Again and again

I am free

Here I have danced

Collecting the stars

Yet I am still scattered

Beyond

Every whisper of the universe

I am free

I am free

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What a pity

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Please

Listen

To

Me

I just wish you could read

My

Mind

I want

I need

Help

But I don’t ask for it

I just don’t want you to pity me

It just makes me want to cry even more

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I want to break down

And cry

Just bend down and cry in the middle of a

Concrete path

So I don’t have to keep it in

Anymore

I just don’t want you to pity me

It just makes me want to cry even more

But I just don’t want you to pity me

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And every little sound of pain

Like music to my eyes

Go away

I can hear the bitter liquid of your pity

I’m so alone

I just want to collapse

And lay there on the gprumd

Staring at the birds spreading their wings

Flying across the sky

And you won’t ask me if I’m ok

Because you know I’m not

Don’t waste your energy

You’re too late

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My footprints

When you saw them

In my tears

Could you see them?

They’re embedded

And the hurt

So

So

So

Much

I wish you could hear my footsteps

What a pity

That

you

can’t

Listen

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You can hear it,

When someone gets on a bus

When someone’s sits in the seat behind you

Their knees banging and hitting the

Back

Of

Your

Seat

Their bag jangling

The slight bump as they sit

They faint sound of their breath

Are you here to wait too?

If you listen closely you can tell when someone is

Getting

On

The

Bus

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And,

In the middle of a crowded street

Where amidst the people

I have planted

My

Feet

I hear a baby crying,

Was I ever that young?

Young enough?

So young that I didn’t feel ashamed of crying loud,

Crying ugly,

Crying so the whole world could hear

Crying without caring what you think?

Was I ever that young?

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You can feel it,

Every image

Every story that blurs behind

Your eyes

You can’t see it,

It drops too fast

Too quickly

And it soaks into your skin

So you can feel it again,

And again

And again

Every image that blues behind your eyes

Can you feel it?

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And sometimes,

When I’m watching the particles of dust in the bright

Bright

Sunlight

I see you

Did I ever know you?

Am I supposed to?

I can’t bring myself to reach forward

So I withdraw back

Into at shell

Do I even know you?

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You can smell it,

Like a tiny wave

Transfixed by you

For a plot srcond

Before crashing down

Over and over again

It repeats;

It can only hold itself up for so long

Or maybe it doesn’t want to

But it can’t help but be drawn

The tiny wave.

You can smell it.

Do I even know you?

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Listen

.